Waiting

I feel like I am just sitting around, waiting for my life to resume. I suppose that is just the way it works when your Hubby is deployed. I feel like we've pushed the pause button on our marriage and family and I am, not so patiently, waiting for his return. I want to be a family again. I am watching our kids grow way too fast and trying not to let it get to me that he is missing it all. I find myself staying away from the house as much as I can. It feels wrong to act like a normal family.
I get to stay home with my babies and yet I feel so overwhelmed. It's strange how things can take a toll on you emotionally, even when you have all the time in the world. My head is completely preoccupied 24/7. I don't really know where I'm going with this blog today. I just need to get it out. I feel off. I'm lonely. I need him here. This Sucks